Part 21 - Me n my bonce

Mum, dad and my other visitors quickly became pro lip readers again! Although it was frustrating when they didn't understand what I was saying! I used to say don't worry if they didn't and look the other way so they didn't see the worry or how upset I was if they asked me to repeat! Friday was ENT day and we was told its not definite you are on the list to be seen or going to be seen so don't hassle your mum to come up! Hassle her or not she was coming regardless, you try messing with her after her baby (in her eyes) has been to hell and back! Friday came my mute self and mum tried to carry on as normal but I was really agitated about what was going to happen! ENT arrived (so much for not being on the list!) and the dreaded briefcase with endoscopy!!!! Yes more camera intrusion! Camera down my nose again (strangely didnt hurt this time!) then in my tracheostomy, no swelling! The consultant was also baffled by my muteness and what had caused this! The speech therapists and ENT were all chatting a bit really like I wasn't there! Why don't we just try it I remember hearing! Oh dear lord what am I just trying??? They turned to me and said we think you're ready to have the tracheostomy out so we will try it if not we will put another one straight in! Mixed emotions of hope, worry, excitement and being absolutely petrified were going through my mind! What if they took it out it didn't work and they couldn't get the new one back in? To be honest I didn't have an awful long time to think about which was probably a good thing! But hang on where was all the equipment the other nurses had when it was changed before? Neck tie snipped OMG this was really happening! Mum held my hand, out came the tracheostomy the speech therapist put her finger over the hole "oh my that's so much better" I said! Tears from me, tears from mum, one very relieved ENT and happy speech therapists! They suctioned me then passed me back the yankeur (now with blood on) I nearly passed out as not great with claret or any other bodily fluids to be honest! I asked someone to take it from me which they smiled and did! Also my physio was in the room and he put the over sized massive plaster over the stoma site (trackie hole) then doubled it up with a foam flesh coloured cup coaster plaster! Right Danielle we will finish our rounds then came back to see you to make sure everything is ok! I never felt such relief! Even if I did now have to hold my neck to cough as the plaster made a farting noise where some air would escape! Tears of joys between me and mum and she passed my phone, I dialled dads number at first the penny didn't drop he thought I was mum! When he did I just burst into tears and I had to pass my phone to mum not wanting to blow me plaster off! 27th September 2013 you was a very good day indeed!!!